Back to school

Wow its nice to have the house almost to my self once more. I have Heidi home but she is easy to keep entertained, granted by me but then I guess I can't have everything.

All the girls were so excited to be going back to school. I walked them there this morning and that chattered all the way! They talked about every thing and nothing at the same time its funny how little girls can do that.

Autumn was a little nervous about it but way excited as well. She was worried about not having everything she would need in her back pack this morning. I told her all she needed was some paper and a pen, to write down what her teachers told her she would need to bring in for school supplies. Then she would bring them the next day. She freaked out and said "how in the world do you know?" I looked at her and said well this is not the first year I have had children in middle school. how many children have I had? and how many years did they all go to middle school? she just glared at me and thought I was crazy. Oh well.

Ben drove to early morning seminary today, out of all my kids he is the only one to have any interest in driving. He is always volunteering to drive Will or I when ever we go out. It was not too bad but I did worry about this big tree we almost took out!! Ben calmly stated that he had lost of room and that my screaming did not help he drive any. And for the record I did not scream. I just spook loudly.

This is Josh's last year in high school I can't believe how fast time has gone. He has decided that he wants to go into graphic design. He had been planing on being an Engineer. but he hats to do math. I suggested to him that perhaps he should major in Engineering and minor in graphic design that way he has more then one option in this big bad world. He told me he would think about it.

Court has been postponed for our foster girls until the 21st of September. That is the date that their parents could loose custody of them permanently. We have decided that we are not going to be adopting them and they know this and this did not seam to upset them too much. There is a family that has shown some interest in adopting all four of them. They are great kids and I think it will not be hard to find a forever family for them. But we have been getting a lot of pressure to adopt them. There is one person in particular that keeps harping on it. she tells me that we will regret not adopting them for the rest of our lives. Well I know this is not true. We do not want to raise any more children. I want to start my own life now and get a job and pay off the house and travel. Plus I know deep in my heart that I do not love the girls the way they need to be loved. I love them as a care giver not a mother. They deserve a family they want children desperately not settle for a family they just cares about them.